Walking while I wonder is a treasured activity. It helps me center. But sometimes I just don't or am too frazzled to remember, to remember to do just that.
Naturally, all expectations were confounded. I've been ever so busy teaching and traveling. It doesn't allow much time for thinking, the life bread of creating my art. I'm heading toward giving up teaching. I do love it when I'm actually in the workshop- but the time preparing, traveling, then decompressing and evaluating when it's over- not to mention trouble shooting the venue!
You can only deal with what is happening now. Nothing is perfect, nothing is perfect.